Right now it is 7:30 a.m. and I am sitting at my computer waiting for Derek (one of my friends) to get up and take me to my house so I can get ready for church. Today we are doing a drama and last night I had to buy a pair of black dress pants because all I have is Kakki and navy blue dress pants. So now im going to have to find some more money because all of my friends and I are going to have a dinner celebration for my birthday. It's going to be really fun. I've invited Nena and her family, Jen, Derek, Kenny, Justin B. and I think I'm going to invite Justin from church. I will invite Steph... though I dont talk to her much. I want to invite Austin and Andrea but they are both really sick so I don't  know. Anyways, so its the day after my birthday and I dont feel any different, you know? I feel the exact same as I did yesterday, which is great because yesterday I had the best birthday I have ever had. I spent the whole day with Nena and we had so much fun. We went on a crusade so to speak, for her school shopping. It was a killer blast. Very awesome. THANK YOU NENA!!!!!!! I bought a ZAO cd from fye and its pretty good stuff. It is VERY hard Christian rock Music. Very good stuff. I have to reform my cd collection. Got to switch out all my secular for the Christian way of life. Anyways I have to be going so I can get Derek up. Last thought... Nena... I miss you.




- Trey «Pri3s7»

Right now its officially my birthday. I am now 18 years old. You want to know whats wrong with this situation? Well... for starters I worried myself to death about this deep cut I got on my thumb.... Thought I was going to have to go to the hospital and I thought if I didnt go before 12 midnight, my parents insurence wasnt going to cover me. Luckly Nena helped me through it. She was there every step of the way. Today was really a great day. I went in for an interview with the job and I think I pretty much have it. It is a small job for right now but I think I will be moving up to management. Hung out with Nena all day which is the highlight of my life really right now. Then we went to John's house and in a good timing to get into some mess. He was taking out his old sterio from his car, which the sterio is broken and I decided that it would be "cool" to through it up against a giant dumpster! IDIOT!!! What was I thinking?! The second time I threw the broken cd player it took a deep piece of my thumb with it! WHAT IS THAT!!!! Anyways, after that Nena and I went and watched the "Moulan Rouge" if thats how you spell it. It was a very awesome movie! A deep tragedy. I wasn't going to talk about this but now I think I will... I want to try and explain something about love. You know whenever you tell someone that you love them and they are like "no you don't you just think that, you don't know that... besides there are plenty of fish in the sea." Well what happens if you are actually in love with them... "you don't know if thats your real feeling... you said you loved someone before but now you don't" I have one comparison and its the only thing I could come up with, has nothing to do with love, has to be the sickest comparison ever but works. So you know when you get that aweful feeling in your stomach and you KNOW you are going to throw up. I mean literally you KNOW it. That's exactly what I feel like. I feel like a grumbling in me is saying, "Trey you love her... but there is nothing you can do about it... fall of the earth... best thing to do... You know it!" BLAH! I feel it when I look into her eyes... its there, all it needs is a hand to grab it...

                                                                                                                   - Trey «Pri3s7»